My love of learning has always been a part of me. I honestly cannot remember a time that I disliked learning. Yes, there were moments when my enthusiasm was challenged. Numbers have always stumped me and therefore math, and on occasion science (at times) were not my favorite subjects all throughout school. History and Social Studies by far are my most favorite subjects!!! English is a bit of a tag-along since there is usually some historical passage, whether fiction or non-fiction that joins in with the grammar and structures. So through my school years I devoured timelines and historical facts; then choked and gagged my way through Multiplication tables and Algebraic Equations.
It wasn’t until after I graduated college that I began to genuinely develop a pleasure in reading. Since that time I have read and re-read several books that have had a tremendous impact on me. (Upcoming Post Alert: My Personal Library Sneak Peak- a cliff notes version of the books that I love the most!) Some of these books warmed my heart; some pricked my soul. Most importantly, they all taught me something that I could apply to myself for the betterment of my life and my family’s lives.
The most recent book that has crossed my path is Discovering Your God-Given Gifts by Don and Katie Fortune. Peony and I love to book swap! We have joked with our other friends about joining our “book club”! Every time one of us reads a new book that causes growth in our lives we gladly encourage others to read and see for themselves. Then, of course we catch-up on our findings, discussing the profound thoughts which sometimes turns into a compare/contrast because Peony and I see things from different angles. This is great because we both benefit from each others perspectives! As of right now, this particular book hasn’t had an opportunity to swap full circle yet because, well, I’m enjoying it sooo much!!!!
** Insider’s Secret… For about a year now, I have been struggling to find out what my purpose is. Why am I am I the way that I am??? Why do I gravitate in certain directions even when I try with a purposed mind to go the other way? Why does it feel like I can’t get my act together? Why can’t I progress in life? I have cried out to God: sometimes in frustration and other times in pure glee and with great expectation. I have cried many tears and lay awake many nights trying to rack my brain on this subject and all to no avail.
Here’s the issue-
I’m a Dreamer!
(this is an official and personal title that I use from another WONDERFUL book Created to be His Helpmeet by Debi Pearl).
When I am not actively using my mind to focus on a task or help one of my Cubs, I am adjusting walls, choosing flooring and putting the face plates on the receptacles in a floor plan… in my Head!
Today, I can laugh at myself and be proud of my internal interior design “eye” but that was not always the case. Jo got Jo into trouble which further frustrated Jo. I should have been thinking about the present. I should have been planning our family menu for the week- no, the month. After all, that IS what ALL good, Godly keepers at home do, right?
Well, not all. And I say that ever-so- respectfully to those who do but it is true that not all of the Christian Mama’s out there are ‘keeping’ the exact same way. God’s intentions and Master plans are intricately unique for each one of us. He would have done himself ( and us) an injustice if He had made us all alike in every way. He knit us together in our mother’s wombs with such precision, that our very personality; our likes and dislikes; our passions in life would bring Him all the Glory and Honor! His floor plan for our lives is so well laid out and detailed that there is so wasted space! He has created a perfect plan just for you and there’s one for me too!
Now that I am coming to understand and embrace my God-given gifts, I can truly say that I feel at home in my skin. I feel that I have purpose! Jeremiah 29:11 states- For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. And not a plan that I tried to design for myself, but one that, with personal submission to Jesus, can be built upon to create a fully-functioning and active vessel and unit for the kingdom of God! Those dreams that I couldn’t shake or my tears, that with embarrassment, I couldn’t hold back are now some POWERFUL motivation for me to seek God’s will for my life!
I feel as though I am no longer without purpose but am actively looking for ways to better sanctify and prepare myself for God’s glorious building project in my life!
“Thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path.” Psalm 119:105
****Check back soon for the ‘cliff notes’ on some of my favorite books!!!!
Until next time….